Experiments, Wake Up Bolus, Breakfast, and Exercise

I was really fighting the blues through the tail end of last week and through the weekend.  Really bad.  What really kicked it off for me was some job stuff that I thought was going well, but wasn’t.  So once again I am looking for work.  Freelance, contract, full-time, part-time, a combination of all of the above – anything will help.  Since Cozmo closed down, this transition has been trying.  Most of all, it has been hard keeping depression at arms length.

stuckWith my current contracting gig crumbling away a little bit, I got pretty dang close and comfortable with depression again, and it sucks.  But depression is a weird monster, because as sucky as it is, there is a strange comfort in it.  Comfort is a bad word for it, because it is anything but comfortable.  But somehow it paralyzes you into staying stuck.  It has this magical power that convinces you the work needed to get out of the hole is WAY worse than the discomfort of actually being in the hole.  It is crazy stuff, and so damn powerful.

With a lot of help from you, I got myself back to the gym on Monday morning.  It was not fun, but the way I felt afterward was incredible. Thankfully, that feeling carried me into working out again Tuesday, and again today (Wednesday).  The exercise seems to be just what I need to fight away the depression.

Managing my blood sugars was not difficult for the workouts on Monday and Tuesday.  Those two days were mostly weight lifting, so it while it got my heart pumping, it didn’t seem to drop my blood sugar much, if at all. Maybe I just got lucky.  Today was a different story though.  I was to do one hour of walking on a treadmill.  I knew that I would need to do something to keep my blood sugar from dropping.  Maybe I can make my “wake up bolus” work for me instead of against me?

Shortly after posting about the wake up bolus, I have been eating breakfast each day to see if that makes things easier.  For me, there is no doubt that eating breakfast makes a huge difference in my day.  Just like Brenda said, it is like a signal to turn off all the extra hormone & energy dumping into my system.  At least, that is what it seems like.

So maybe if I skip breakfast today, and work out right away, the “non-breakfast BG rise” and the “exercise BG fall” will cancel each other out.  It’s worth a try, right?

I woke up at 94 mg/dl, was just a hair of 100 mg/dl when I arrived to the gym.  I walked at various inclines and speeds ranging from 3.2 to 3.5 for exactly 42 minutes.  My blood sugar on my CGM (or interstitial fluid sugar, but let’s not get technical) held almost steady the whole time.  There was such a slight downward trend, but I was pretty sure I could make it through the hour without going low.  But, at the 42 minute mark I felt a bit funny.  My CGM said 72 mg/dl, and I thought I was probably lower than that (which is usually how it works for me).  So I decided I should stop.

I have to admit that the blood sugar was not the only thing that made me stop.  I think it was just the one that put me over the edge.  I was bored silly.  I think that I’ll maybe try to mix in a few different things for cardio next time.  I was also worried about running late to an appointment.  To pat myself on the back, I had been thinking it would have been safer to skip working out in the morning, and go “later”.  You know, that mythical “later” that never happens?  Instead, I just went on ahead and worked out, and I’m proud of me for doing it.  Even if I didn’t manage the full hour.

When I got back down to my stuff, and actually checked my blood sugar (note to CGM users & potential buyers, THAT (the blood sugar) is the one that matters), I was at 86 mg/dl.  So I probably could have gone ahead and finished my workout.  I’m still learning, as we always are, and next time I’ll do it a bit different.  But I feel good because I was so close to pulling it off.  My experiment to delay breakfast almost worked!

I have more sore muscles in my body than I can remember having in a very long time.  But my mood and attitude feel so much better that this painful price is well worth it.

Get posts by email?

Please note: I reserve the right to delete comments that are offensive or off-topic.

Leave a Reply

Your email address will not be published. Required fields are marked *

This site uses Akismet to reduce spam. Learn how your comment data is processed.

14 thoughts on “Experiments, Wake Up Bolus, Breakfast, and Exercise

  1. Hi Scott! Just spent some time reading some of your blog and commend you for sharing your experiences with others.
    My mother was recently diagnosed with diabetes as well as a liver disease and was facing what she thought was going to be difficult lifestyle changes. My brother-in-law introduced her to a health supplement and she is now working on bringing her insulin levels down and hopes to get off of insulin altogether. She’s also had some various other labwork done and her liver is almost functioning back at the normal level and her cholesterol improved as well… all after only about 6 wks. The Dr. asked her what she was doing and told her to keep doing it.
    My husband & I have just started the supplement ourselves last week and he is already getting off of his heartburn medicine… I know it sounds to good to be true, and my husband is trying to find a fault in it but hasn’t been able to yet. 🙂
    I saw you were looking for work and know that with my mom’s success on this supplement you may very well have the similar results… if you do, it would be easy for you to market and sell. My mother has started selling it as have we and her story gets a lot of attention and gets people interested.
    Check out my blog to find out more and if you have questions please ask. Again… we are just starting with this so my blog is new, but we are excited to have such good results… some other family members have had some good benefits too that I will be documenting soon.
    Wish you luck in all of your efforts! 🙂

  2. Great job Scott! I know that it wasn’t easy for you to go back to the gym! I’m glad that you did.
    I’m sorry to hear about your job. Keep your head up, something will come your way…. it has too 🙂

  3. Wow, three days in a row! Good for you! I totally get bored on the treadmil. Maybe a book on tape (okay not tape, an i-pod or cd?) to help the time go by faster? And I’m with you on the “later” that never happens.
    I’m so impressed you get yourself to do it first thing!

  4. Scott,
    I am so sorry you are struggling with job issues, so many of us are these days. I feel it is so much harder on those of us with a chronic illness plus depression as I am very familiar. As I said to you on twitter the quote my BIL sent to me that lost his home, moveed to another state and had to move in with his sister with my little nieces.
    From my BIL’s email:
    Head’s up…..gotta improve soon. Recent quote I saw was “it’s not about surviving the storm, it’s learning to dance in the rain”. Get a feeling we’re going to have to live by that motto for many years to come.

  5. Scott, I’m still thinking about job things for you. All the time, actually. You deserve a satisfying one that can take care of your family.
    On the exercise side, do you listen to music when you run? I used to but found it incredibly dull. So lately I’ve been listening to some awesome podcasts and iTunes University. iTunes U has lectures from top schools around the world on hundreds of topics. I was listening to an awesome guest lecture series on entrepreneurship from Oxford. They had real big shots talking about venture capital, valuation, business plans, and other topics in engaging and thought productive ways. That may not be your cup of tea, but an engaging speaker on a topic that interests you can easily eat up an hour.

  6. Nice job actually doing the workouts. There is nothing more discouraging than looking for work (((hugs))).
    As for boredom, I try and keep a book I am interested in on my elliptical – and only allow myself to read it there. Lately I’ve been trying a book on CD with the same restrictions, but I find that even though I am listening to a story, I still get bored without something to occupy my eyes….

  7. truer words were never spoken…
    I always feel better after exercise..it’s just getting my mind out of all the funky vision first…
    “You may have to fight a battle more than once to win it.”
    M. Thatcher

  8. Way to go!
    One suggestion on the breakfast strategy… perhaps instead of skipping breakfast on the treadmill days, have some protein. Maybe a little carb with it, but make sure you get some protein in there to help carry you through the workout. I don’t know, but the trainer and nutritionist leading my fitness class are always pushing the protein and I definitely find that my BG doesn’t crash so bad if I have enough of it.

  9. Amylia once told me that working out is the one thing you can do for your diabetes that actually makes you feel good! I have never thought of that but it is so true.
    Good job my brother. You are inspiring me.

  10. I’m so glad you were able to lift your spirits Scott. I know how difficult that can be sometimes. And kudos to you for jumping back on the exercise bandwagon …. it sure is inspiration for someone like me who needs to jump back on too 🙂