I Hate Measuring Food!

Another one of my many trouble areas is that I do almost everything I can to avoid actually measure or weigh any of my foods.

This includes depending heavily on pre-packaged, already measured foods, also just SWAG or LADCS bolusing. Pretty much whatever it takes to not weigh or measure my food.

Old Kitchen ScaleIt’s not that I don’t know how – I’m comfortable with the tools of the trade, and do actually know how to use the equipment. When you start throwing conversions and stuff at me, I get a little shaky though…

For some reason it is the actual act of weighing and measuring that really dredges up some powerful negative emotions for me. I don’t know exactly what that is all about.

And the thing is, I completely understand that it is a very necessary and vital part of “getting it right”. Logically it makes all the sense in the world. So why is it so hard for me? Why do I work so hard to avoid it, and pay such a steep price for doing so?

I know that I’m not alone in hating this part of diabetes control or management. Who else out there struggles with this? How have you worked through it to achieve some sort of balance?

Special Delivery!

I got my delivery of Girl Scout Cookies today!!

And for the record, one sleeve of Thin Mints is 90 grams of carbs and 700 calories.

Girl Scout Thin Mint Cookies

I’ve been trying to give them away all day, but I must admit that a fair number have found their way into my mouth…

To Be Proud Of

Pita BreadYou would all be proud of me.

I tried something new for breakfast the other day.

I had a serving of scrambled “Egg Beaters” (basically egg whites), with one slice of american cheese (the heavily processed variety), in a whole wheat pita bread. Total carbs? About 13 grams.

How was it? It was just Ok – tasted very “eggy” (duh!), which is a taste I’m not crazy on, but think I could get used to. Yes, I know I’m a bit strange…

How did my blood sugar do? Um, pretty good I think. You see, while the day started out with the best of intentions, it kind of ran a bit crazy after breakfast and I didn’t pay too much attention to the BG until much later in the day. Shame on me.

I’ll try it again on a weekday where I can pay better attention to it.

The Card Says "Nutrition Counseling Services"…

Drawing of a Milk CartonI think for many of us, we know the truth, but may not be willing to face the truth. I think this is certainly the case for me in looking at my (lack of) “Nutritional Habits”.

I talked to my Endo about this, and he handed me a card. It said “Nutrition Counseling Services” and had a name scribbled on the back of it. He said that this dietician is very knowledgeable with diabetes and pumping, and recommended that I make an appointment with her.

I know that the way I eat is probably the core problem with my diabetes struggles. I have known this for a long time. In fact, it’s always been like that. As long as I can remember.

While the quantities of the things I choose to eat are certainly a large portion (pun intended) of the problem, it’s probably more what I choose to eat.

I don’t know if I’ve gone into this before or not (I probably have – forgive me). I eat carbs almost exclusively. And we’re not talking about grams that ride along with other non-carb things – we’re talking good old-fashioned hard-core starches. Meat and potatoes, minus the meat. Grilled ham & cheese minus the ham. Chicken Alfredo minus the chicken & heavy on the pasta. Okay? Okay. I’m embarrassed to a point about sharing this, but I also recognize that it needs to change.
I don’t like meats. Does that make me a vegetarian? Well, maybe – except that I don’t eat vegetables (some green beans are an exception to that rule). How about fresh fruits, or maybe salads? Nope and nope. Give me breads, pasta (plain jane style), rice, potatoes, etc.

When I go to eat at a place like Perkins, here is what I order. Grilled cheese on sourdough, french fries, side of hash browns, diet coke (can’t have too much sugar you know…) times 5 or 6 refills, then a slice of pie to top it off. Don’t forget about the entire bottle of ketchup that is poured on top of everything (except the pie…). Burger King you ask? Lunch menu = 2 x Large Fries, Breakfast menu = 2 x medium hash browns and an order of french toast sticks.

Ok, how about a place like Leeann Chin? Chinese food? An entire order of white rice (is that 2 or 3 cups of rice?) and an order of those cream cheese puffs (that would be 6 of them). Not to mention a couple of the fortune cookies.

Well, what about when I’m at home? Surely I can’t eat that bad at home. Right? Right.

Well, when I get home from work I will usually help polish off whatever the kids might have had – that is unless it involves meat, veggies or fruit. In that case I’ll polish off the carby stuff (mac & cheese, dinner rolls, garlic bread, etc.). Then I’ll have some type of sandwich. This will be one of three possible varieties. Cheese & Mayo (or Miracle Whip), Cheese (dipped in ketchup), or (ready for this?) ketchup & mustard (again, dipped in ketchup). Maybe a cup of dry sugary cereal afterwards to satisfy my sweet tooth. Sick, isn’t it? Yes, I know.

When I’m being what I think is a step closer to healthy, I’ll make the sandwich on whole wheat, have some cottage cheese (for protein) and down a V-8 (that counts as veggies, right?).

Junk food? Yes, I’m all about that. If it’s packaged and quick (in other words I don’t have to think about the serving size – just eat the whole package), consider it a no brainer. Too bad that those types are typically the worst for you. Anything that ends in “itos” (Frito’s, Doritos, Cheetos), etc.

I’ll eat candy (and lots of it) that I don’t even like, just because it’s candy.

Being full has never stopped me from continuing to eat, just because it tastes good.

I look at what I typically eat, and it makes me think I should have a stomach ache. There is little to no nutritional value in what I eat, and I have to wonder how the heck my body keeps going! And what performance boost would I get out of eating better? I say performance in terms of things like sports (basketball), but also in my daily energy levels and moods as well.

This is not from lack of exposure – my mom & dad tried their best to get me to eat all the good stuff. I remember being told I would eat such and such, or sit at the table until bedtime. Well, when bedtime rolled around I got up from the table and went to bed. I remember being a stubborn little rascal when it came to food.

For many of the things I don’t like, it’s due to the texture or ideas of how it’s made that give me the willies. Thinking of some nasty meat processing plant, or that roadkill you drive by, you know, blood & guts. It’s terribly silly for a grown man to get grossed out like that!

I do know that there are many things I would like, if I just got the nerve to try some different things!

This is an all-encompassing issue though, that I guess I’m glad to say I’d be fighting with regardless of the diabetes. It’s just general health here – but the diabetes makes it more important and more noticeable.

I’ll be sharing my journey through this introspection of my dietary habits. I’m not trying to move mountains in a day, so it may be a long ride – but I’m sure it will be an interesting one.

As Andrea suggested, I’ll make an appointment, and go into it with an open mind. They may have some good ideas, and I can bring up any questions and concerns I have.

Why Does Food Suck?

a burnt slice of toast with eyes and a frown cut out of it.I sometimes hate dealing with food.

If I didn’t eat anything, ever, my blood sugars would be rock solid, and stable as ever all day. Then I’d die of starvation of course!

I think that most of my troubles with food comes from the fact that I’m not honest with myself about¬†the serving sizes. The serving sizes on many food items are so incredibly unrealistic! For example, grape juice. The normal serving size is 1/4 cup. Now who on earth drinks 1/4 cup of grape juice?!?!?!! Another example is chips & crackers. Cool Ranch Doritos, the normal serving size is about 1 ounce, or 12 chips. 12 CHIPS?!?! For club crackers, I think the serving size is like 4 crackers.

I don’t know – maybe I’m a big fatass that eats more than everyone else in the world, but those serving sizes are terrible…