I need to get something off my chest.
I am in the worst shape of my life.
With major changes in my life routine since my work with Cozmo stopped, I haven’t kept up on my exercise at all. In fact, without much of a routine, everything is all screwy. I am getting depressed (not good right before winter!), I am gaining weight, my blood sugars are crazy.
I’m in a bad spot, and that makes me feel blue. Feeling blue makes me eat more. Eating more makes me feel worse. Which makes me eat more. What the hell!?
If I know that I am in a destructive cycle, and I recognize how shitty it makes me feel, why is it so hard to snap out of?
I feel so overwhelmed by the big picture. I am completely paralyzed by the daunting mission of turning myself around. I am afraid that I don’t have the energy I need to push the boulder up the hill.
(One of ) The answer(s) is simple. Walking.
If I know the answer, or at least some way to start working on the big problem, why don’t I just go do it? It is frustrating and depressing to feel so stuck.
Someone please slap me out of it! Or get a cattle prod…