Stuck, Stuck, Stuck. Suck, Suck, Suck!

I need to get something off my chest.

I am in the worst shape of my life.

With major changes in my life routine since my work with Cozmo stopped, I haven’t kept up on my exercise at all.  In fact, without much of a routine, everything is all screwy.  I am getting depressed (not good right before winter!), I am gaining weight, my blood sugars are crazy.

I’m in a bad spot, and that makes me feel blue.  Feeling blue makes me eat more.  Eating more makes me feel worse.  Which makes me eat more.  What the hell!?

If I know that I am in a destructive cycle, and I recognize how shitty it makes me feel, why is it so hard to snap out of?

I feel so overwhelmed by the big picture.  I am completely paralyzed by the daunting mission of turning myself around.  I am afraid that I don’t have the energy I need to push the boulder up the hill.

(One of ) The answer(s) is simple. Walking.

If I know the answer, or at least some way to start working on the big problem, why don’t I just go do it?  It is frustrating and depressing to feel so stuck.

Someone please slap me out of it!  Or get a cattle prod…

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Scott K. Johnson

Patient voice, speaker, writer, advocate. Living life with diabetes and telling my story. Patient Success Manager, USA for mySugr (All opinions expressed are my own and do not necessarily represent the position of my employer).

Diagnosed in April of 1980, I recognize the incredible mental struggle of living with diabetes. Read more…