Screw It! I’ll Just Eat The Rest…

Image of a can of Campbell's Tomato SoupA while back I wrote about a fight I had with a can of tomato soup (which I lost…).  Tonight I had a similar experience with my dinner.

I took a shot of symlin then put together my meal.  I programmed my meal bolus to be spread out over 90 minutes (because of the symlin), then sat down to eat.

As I got to the last part of my meal, I just didn’t want to eat anymore.  I was perfectly satisfied with what I had eaten, and wanted to just toss the rest.

You probably already know, but I’m totally guilty of over-complicating everything.  This is another great example.  Or, maybe you will all tell me that I am normal in how this played out, and that you probably would have done exactly the same thing (please!).

I wanted to throw the food away, but then my “diabetes mind” started working its curse on me.  Here’s the “play-by-play” (prepare for a  long, run-on paragraph — just like it happens in my head).

I had eaten about 75% of my meal.  I was running an extended bolus, so I had time to stop it.  But then what?  Then I would have to re-program the bolus for the food I had eaten.  But what about the insulin it had already delivered?  I would have to subtract that amount from the calculated total.  In order to get that number (the amount already delivered) I would have to jump through an extra menu or two – no big deal, really, but it is extra “stuff”.  Do I need to worry about the 30 minutes it took me to eat my meal?  I mean, I started a 90 minute bolus 30 minutes ago.  Now I need to start a new, different bolus, with a whole new set of numbers.  Do I program this new bolus to go for 90 minutes?  That doesn’t seem right.  So then I would program it for 60 minutes (the original 90 minus the elapsed 30)?  I don’t know?  This is a late dinner, so I’ll probably be going to sleep in the next few hours.  I’ve been disturbed by lows the last two nights in a row, and am tired.  I don’t want to deal with another low.  If this were lunch, I’d probably just skip this food and have a snack later to make up for it.  There are two things I can do to avoid a low blood sugar later.  I can do all of these calculations to re-adjust my bolus, or eat the food.

As we all know, this stuff runs through our brains in about 2 seconds.  It’s like we’re playing chess, trying to plan our move. Checking for vulnerabilities we’ve opened up by moving, and reviewing the position our move will put us in.  Even though it happens quickly for us, it is indescribably exhausting.

The real bitch of the whole thing?  I went low not even 40 minutes after I finished eating, so I could have (should have!) waited to take my meal bolus anyway.

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Karen
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OMG – YOU are not nuts! My husband ‘play’ this game constantly. This disease consumes every minute of every day. It’s enough to absolutely drive a person to insanity!! Noone can really understand unless they are on the ‘ride’!!!

Bethany
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Great blog, Scott! I’m your newest subscriber!

zip
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OMG, I love this post. That is exactly the kind of stuff we have to think about all the time and most of the time, we’re not even aware of the processing. And people think the hardest part of diabetes are the needles?? HAH!

Sue Rafati
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I learned my lesson! I either don’t finish the meal or I’m more hungry and eat more. It helps to have a little gastroparesis too. These days, I never bother to bolus before a meal because it usually means the kind of trouble you’re describing.
I might do a combo bolus near or at the end of my meal, and then have some snack/dessert later. In that case I just do a normal bolus on top of the existing combo. Works great for me.

Lorraine
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The long run-on sentence part of this made me smile. How many times a day do we have those long run-on sentences? Most of the time I don’t realize it, unless I’m on the phone with the school nurse and she poses the circumstances and then there’s my pause. She’s used to it. She knows what I’m doing. So funny, although it’s not funny. It reminds me of your video with Ninja – it shouldn’t take so much math to eat!

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