I’ve been feeling very emotional about my diabetes recently.
It feels very vague and hard to identify.
There is nothing really specific I can pin it to, no real point of frustration or trouble. More like a low level, under the surface disturbance that has gotten my emotional undies all in a bunch.
I was reading one of Birdie’s posts and it hit me. How can I possibly feel so utterly lost sometimes when I’ve been dealing with diabetes for my whole life? That feeling of “lostness”, not in terms of loss (a different issue altogether), but rather not knowing where to go and what to do, really hit me.
I think it is important for me to recognize those feelings when they come up, especially when I am able to put a word to what I’m feeling. I’ll try to dig into it more and see what comes of it.
[…] It was a perfect example of feeling lost. […]
Hey Scott. I hate when I get those feelings. But hopefully, it will pass soon for you. Hang in there. 🙂
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Scott,
Digging in takes courage and energy. I hope when/if you dig in, it brings you peace and that you don’t judge yourself.
I think that those of us who were diagnosed with diabetes as children go through this as we age and approach 20, 30, 40 years with the disease. I often wonder if I got t1 now (at 31) if I’d be more responsible or diligent about it. Hmmph..no point in wondering, I know. I’d like those 20 years back, sans diabetes, though!