Sleeping In & Basketball Anxiety (Eggs & Grits Confidence)

clockRoutines help me with my diabetes.  As much as I like to think that by using an insulin pump I can just go with the flow, that’s not always the case.

A routine, by definition, is something that is done over and over.  With diabetes, repetition gives us an opportunity to fine tune all the calculations that go into life with diabetes.

Working with Ginger, I’ve come up with a good routine for the first half of my typical day.  I wake up early and have two scrambled eggs with some corn grits for breakfast.  I keep a measuring cup in the container of corn grits, so I know I’m getting an exact carb count.

I had that breakfast for about three weeks straight (during the weekdays), and of those 15 days, there was only ONE day where my blood sugar didn’t behave as I expected.  1 day of 15 days.  I’m chalking that one day up to the fact that diabetes just does it’s own thing sometimes.

Being able to expect what my blood sugar was going to do made it easier to plan for my basketball time at the gym.  I didn’t appreciate that fact until the Friday after Thanksgiving here in the US.  My family didn’t have to get up and go to school or work, and I knew I was going to sleep in too.

That’s when the anxiety hit me; I realized that I wouldn’t be following the routine that gave me so much confidence at the gym.  I knew I’d be waking up later than usual, and I had no idea what I should eat or do with my insulin.  I need to fuel my body.  I need insulin for that fuel to work.  If I didn’t get that balance just right, my basketball would be so much harder and less fun.

I have lived with diabetes for over 30 years, and I have played basketball for a while too.   People who don’t live with diabetes often think once you have a few years under your belt, that living with diabetes gets easier.  Diabetes is hard every single day.  It does not necessarily get easier with time.

Here’s the part of the story where I’m supposed to tell you what I did, and that basketball was amazing and fun.  Honestly, I can’t remember what happened that Friday.  I know I played basketball, and I don’t remember any tragedies.  So, I did what we do.  We find a way to get through the situation.

But what has stuck with me is the level of anxiety and worry I experienced Thursday night.  I didn’t have my “Eggs & Grits” confidence, and it threw me off.

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8 thoughts on “Sleeping In & Basketball Anxiety (Eggs & Grits Confidence)

  1. I guess grits is like oats in the Uk. I moved to France a few months ago. The locals look at me in a very strange way when I ask for oats. Oats are for feeding the horses they tell me.

    So I am now the Englishman who eats horse feed.

  2. Yes, I totally get it. I get in a routine of light breakfast, bolus 1/2 the norm, and head out for a run with the dog most days. Then my friend who doesn’t like the early mornings or the cold wants to run at lunch instead. Hmmm…what to do?? Usually works out OK with a reduced basal a couple hours ahead, but definitely makes the mental wheels have to turn, and the worry drip starts (will I have a big drop and ruin the run for both of us?). Also hard to get across that I really do need to know approximately what time we are going. Hate the routine, but hate to devote too much mental energy to the D even more.

  3. Hi Scott,
    Although I am not diabetic, your article on your daily routine took me back many years ago. I was on my twenties when I realized that I didn’t feel too good during the weekends, but come Monday, I felt great again. I could not understand why; after all, I had to get up early in the mornings to go to work.
    Finally it dawned on me that it was the Monday-Friday routine that kept me in great shape. And it has been that way ever since.

  4. Breakfast is my problem meal and part of the “problem” is that I am just lazy. I would rather sleep longer than make something for breakfast. I usually just grab something on my way out the door, which by nature (portability) is higher in carb. I know what my problem is but I am not really interested in solving it.
    Grits, eh? I can’t get over the mushy-ness.

  5. Like, all of your posts, this just hits home. I LOVE routines and schedules and planning, but something about following a routine for diabetes make me BANANAS!!! I somehow feel that if I just try hard enough I can just wing it and bolus accordingly, but it is not that simple. Thank you for this post, it is nice to know that I am not the only one who finds that routine helps my diabetes, even though it makes me furious.
    I am glad that you made it through basketball and that it was uneventful enough that you don’t remember.
    Thank you for all of your honesty, it is so refreshing.

  6. thanks scott.im still glad that you are finding something that gets you going.im watching as this play unfolds.heck thanks to ginger and you i might just be real wrong about something i believed!
    lol wish i had something very cool and savvy to say about the anxiety and worry.but alas that type of thing stays with me also.i suspect for me its more like” superstition ” or a ball player not changing his socks on a winning streak…i jinx what ever was working by changing it.the mental hurdles are the hardest.
    gives me something to think about.